Today's Picture

I created this picture of a small card that says, "Nevertheless, she persisted".  And persist, I will.

I have this card in front of me on my computer stand every day to remind me to keep on going when I feel like quitting. I DO NOT use it to force activity or work I don't want or feel well enough to do in the moment. I use it as a reminder to carefully choose what's most important for me in this moment.

GRATITUDE

As some of you, who are also my Facebook friends, know, I have been ill since the last week in July with EOE (Eosinophilic Esophagitis), and it's been both terrifying and enlightening.

The terrifying part was the inability to swallow and, therefore, eat food; the dry vomiting and the unremitting insomnia were wearing me down. I was weak, dizzy, and had trouble walking.

I had an Urgent Care visit on a Saturday, then an ER visit a day later on Monday. This lasted for over a week, and at times, I felt as if this was my last hurrah. I couldn't get an appointment with my gastroenterologist until December 3rd, regardless of my physical condition. The current Healthcare system is broken and badly broken.

Without going into more of the icky details, I am on the mend, and I'm finally seeing my gastroenterologist on August 14th. Wish me luck!

Right now, having had two acupuncture appointments, I am feeling much better. He said, "You have no Chi; you have no gas."  And he said I must eat. He's pretty darn good, and after my treatment yesterday, I have felt hungry and ate a good amount of food with no swallowing issues!

So, as I always look for what good I have received from these trying situations, I found GRATITUDE.  And here's how that happened.

Last night I was having a good sleep and awakened around 4:15 am, feeling good but wanting to get a couple of more hours sleep. So, already prepared to listen to something with my headband headphones on, I fired up a 777 Hz: Cleanse Aura & ALign Chakras/Spiritual Awakening Frequency Music and started listening.

When I awoke about an hour later, I was filled with a feeling of tremendous gratitude for this sudden illness, for my life, and for my Beloveds. I felt a little out-of-body and surrendered to it.

What came to me was how very fortunate I was that this illness happened to me, so I had to slow down, stop striving to be perfect so people would like me, and force me to take the time to re-evaluate how I want to live going forward.

I had already decided to take off the month of August for rest and contemplation, but this was a deeper feeling, a life-changing one. I now understand I am meant to completely change how I use my energy and how I am to use it to be of service to others and make a lasting impact.

So, dearly beloved readers, I am here today to announce a few things I am considering. I'm not done yet, as each new day brings more insight into my path forward. And I'll ask for some input from you.

I'm seriously considering moving this Love-Letter to Substack in September. What's Substack? "Substack is a platform that lets you create and publish your own newsletter, podcast, or video with full editorial control and no ads. You can own your work, your mailing list, and your subscriber payments, and grow your audience with Substack's network." All in one place! OMG, that sounds like heaven.

Substack allows for both paid subscriptions ($8/month) and free. Most Substackers use both models with some free and some paid. Paid subscribers get perks; free none but the articles themselves.

I'm playing with different perks for paid subscribers, and I'd love it if you would chime in on which of the following appeals most to you:

1. A 4-card individual Tarot reading monthly for 4-6 Subscribers; first come, first served.
   
2. 1-hour Webinars on various subjects like Self-Care, Women's Empowerment, Medical Cannabis use, etc.
   
3. Monthly Mini-CroneMinds virtual events, like a Mastermind, only so much more fun

Drop me a very short email, taru@tarufisher.com, with your favorite from the above list. And any ideas or suggestions will be gratefully accepted!

Another thing that has happened to me is that I no longer resonate with the word "Coach," which used to mean a lot to me. There seems to be a coach on every corner. I've also spent money I didn't have to take courses that promised the moon, and delivered Moonrocks! I'm still paying off a loan of over $7500 I took out for the last coaching business scam I bought into. Yikes! No more courses!!!

I've also come to feel I'm more of a mentor, and to a very small number of women, than a coach.

So, during this month off, I'm hoping that I find a new way to offer my services that fits my values and my vision, which calling myself a Coach no longer does.

OK, enough for today.

Love - Taru