A Time of Turbulence & Re-Birth

If you follow me on Facebook, you will have seen the sudden health crisis I'm currently experiencing. It came upon me unexpectedly 8 days ago and has upturned my life. I'm still trying to sort it out, but the "Healthcare" system is not cooperating, and I can't get in to see my PCP until September 3rd.

It began with a sore throat feeling and quickly progressed to not being able to eat any food as I would throw it up immediately before it even got past my throat.

I won't go into more details, but it is some kind of gastrointestinal problem related to my esophageal allergy. I have also been unable to fall asleep and stay asleep, not a good thing for anyone, especially an Elderwoman. Last night, I had my first good night's sleep in 8 days!

I'm also weak and unable to walk from one room to the other without feeling exhausted and needing to catch my breath. This seems to be easing up a bit today so here I am at my standing desk getting this out.

So what am I learning?

• Self-Care is not an option.
• Overdoing it is not an option.
• Ignoring the signs of health problems is not an option.

The biggest takeaway is I am not immortal, and I have to re-assess how I am living the life I have left. And re-assess it, I am!

I have been a doer since I was a child and have been trying to do way too much for way too long. I look around my poor, cluttered office and cringe. I look at my clothes closet and feel overwhelmed. It looks like a storage unit!

I recently spent hours/days trying to fix a tech issue with my taru@tarufisher.com email and was being bounced back and forthbetweel BlueHost and Apple. I became so angry it disrupted my life in a very negative way.

I also have had ongoing tech issues with my "Coaches Console" software, which remain basically unresolved after many attempts with their Tech Support. I DO NOT need such an elaborate and buggy piece of software. Back to basics and simplicity.

It's also been hard for me to "market" myself because I hate it so much. I've been working on that with another Coach and her Group, and I am happy to say I will no longer market in the same way, if at all.

The positive outcome, which I always look for, is I'm now taking off the entire month of August to reassess how I want to live my life in its last season.

I'm already envisioning what my contribution to women's empowerment can look like going forward. I want a community of women to hold each other up and move forward with love and connection.

Will I continue to coach? No, at least not in the sense coaching has become known for. Will I change my role? Probably. I'm playing with Mentor, Guide, etc.

Will I devote time each day to post on Social Media to promote myself? No. If I post it will be because I want to share some valuable information.

Will I continue this Love-Letter?  Hell, yes! It's the one thing that lights me up.

I don't know what's next, except I will SLOW down, find out what this health issue is, get rid of the unnecessary crap I have in my life, and spend more time recharging in Nature.

A big upheaval is here, and I intend to ride it to a new chapter in my life.

All my love, Dear Reader - Taru